Wednesday, April 13, 2016

I Still Need You



“I still need you, Mama. I’m not a woman yet.”

Ah, life lessons from my sweet, fiery, impulsive, loving, recently-turned-middle child.
It’s so simple to let go and take a breath when our children hit a certain age. They’re easy, independent, know so much, and exhibit great amounts of common sense (usually). 

But they still need us.

They still need us, as parents, to pray for them - to pray With them. They still need us to talk to, to cry on, and to share their dreams as we sit in their rooms at night before bed. I so often find myself letting my older kids to their own solitude because I need mine, but every once in a while I’m reminded that the pats on the back and words of encouragement are not only appreciated, they're necessary.

So, thank you, my Evynn, for teaching me to stop what I’m doing and look you in the eye, and hear what you’re saying. 

And I can teach you - one conversation at a time - that even when you become a woman, you’ll always need your Mama.  


Thursday, February 18, 2016

I Understand



One year ago today, my deepest fears were obliterated and a new life began for us all.

This baby girl has given me a new purpose. She's given me a love that reaches higher to my God, deeper for my family, and spreads out to countless others I would never have seen before her.

All those months of begging, pleading, and crying out to Jesus for Him to take away my daughter’s Down syndrome, and that morning, exactly one year ago this morning, I was faced with the realization that His answer was ‘No’. 

‘No, sweetheart. I know you don’t understand now, but one day you will.’

And He was right.




Isaiah 55:8-9
8“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the LORD.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.